I have previously written about the cognitive deficits I face due to my assault and medication side effects. Well, today I am going to share an epic failure of mine for which I have no one to blame but myself.
In March, I received two pieces of mail from an organization that helps me support myself. One paper said I was recertified while the other said I was being cut off. It didn’t make any sense to me. I did not look into it any further because I kept receiving my services.
On Monday evening, I realized that the money I expected to be in my account wasn’t there. Immediately, my mind went back to the two conflicting letters I received. I carefully read both letters again and I was still confused as to why I didn’t get the assistance I was expecting. It was not until my fiance offered a suggestion that I understood what happened. I had been recertified for one benefit and cut off for the other benefit. Now I have to go around Rochester collecting paperwork and hope I can get my benefits back.
I really feel like an idiot. I cannot trust my brain. It needs an out of order sticker. I also feel like I need to be checked up on. I should have other people read important papers and explain them to me thoroughly. The worse part of it all is that I have created more stress and strain for my fiance because he has to cover the bill that did not get paid. It all has me feeling pretty low right now.