How do you tell someone I love you but I can’t stand to be around you?
I love you but the thought of you makes me cringe
I love you but when I am in your presence I feel like I am suffocating.
It’s like you suck all the oxygen out of my lungs and I’m left with no air to breathe
How do you tell someone I love you but your attitude repels me?
The things you do make me sick
Just the thought of you makes my head throb
I love you, I really do love you
But I hate what you have become to me
I hate the gimme, gimme, gimme coming from your mouth and the what else can I get from her look in your eyes
Loving you is exhausting
It takes energy I don’t have to give
It requires me to abandon my own needs to continuously meet yours
It makes me feel guilty if I ever say “no”
Loving you is painful on a whole new level of pain I didn’t know existed
Loving you is hard, so very hard
But I must love you
You are mommy and daddy
I have to love you
And I do
I truly do
It is our relationship I hate
This poem is my entry for memeespoetryparties poetry challenge